Sincerely, Me

This is going to be my last in-depth post for a while without some humor to lighten the mood. I don't want to come off as though I am always complaining, down, or seeking attention. My only reason for posting anything about what I am going through is the hope that maybe one person will see my heart and troubles and understand they are not alone. It is also pretty much my only social outlet so I try to make it count for something.

I know we all feel lonely from time to time. We have all been depressed about something. But some people out there feel that every day even when they are around others. They go to the Doctor looking for some kind of relief and sometimes it takes the edge off but it never goes away. But they remain silent out of fear of isolation.

The cause of this loneliness and depression can vary from person to person. Some have lost someone special to them and it changed their entire world. Some may be recovering from substance abuse, dealing with their broken life but afraid to talk to anyone out of the fear of judgment. Some have had their heart broken one too many times.

Others are like me. They have a chemical imbalance that started in adolescence. It isn't because they have done something wrong or that they just need to cheer up. No matter what you think there hasn't "always been something wrong with them" And often their suffering only intensifies as the year's pass. They will tell you they are fine but inside they are screaming please help me but they know there is nothing you can do to help anyway.

All of them have learned that others don't want to hear about their sorrow. They have been taught that people really don't want to know. Others may be sympathetic at first, but even their family will tire of them should they honestly answer the question "how are you today" and they don't want to be isolated further, So they keep quiet, putting on fake smiles when they have to so that other people will feel comfortable around them.

There are so many reasons that people feel alone or depressed that I could never do the topic justice in a facebook post. So instead of trying to record them all maybe, I could be listening to those that suffer from them.

If you are out there and you feel alone and hurt and you don't have anyone that you will or feel like you can talk to for whatever reason. Send me a DM. I promise I will listen to your struggle and give you no advice. I will just listen and if you are sad, I will be sad with you. If you are hurt, I will do my best to understand your pain. If you are alone, well I am here for you and I will not judge you. I am far from perfect but I do really care. And I will never tell anyone anything you share with me about what you are going through. Just remember I am here and I want to help. Really, I need to help.

Sincerely,

Me