Heart of Stone
- Jeffery W. Underwood
- Apr 25, 2020
- 2 min read
Updated: Apr 26, 2020
Thought of the Day: Heart of Stone.
I once went through, what I now know as the hardest time of my life. It was a time when the pain of loss was still fresh and out of self-preservation, I determined that I needed a heart of stone to shield me from its harm.
"Make my heart into stone, so hard that steel will envy" became my mantra. I whispered it under my breath to each agonizing moment. I spoke it to my reflection in the mornings and cast it into my dreams at night. And through dedication and perseverance, I succeeded.
Today I still carry that which I made out of ignorance. What a foolish young man I was. Life soon taught me that a stone will shatter where a tender heart only bruises. That the flesh will heal, but a stone, once broken must be repaired leaving it changed forever.
I came through that time with lessons learned and with what is still a broken but repaired heart. It wasn't repaired by the divine. A friend that saw my condition reached out to me with real love. They used mortar and patience to return each piece to its proper place.
I know that I will carry it with me for the rest of my life, its crack's to remind me of my mistakes. Just because I allowed my heart to harden, it doesn’t mean it can’t be thawed once again.
The queer thing about the heart is that either by design or need, it can be more than one thing at the same time. Today mine is both the cracked stones of the past I must carry, and a lithe heart that carries me on.
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